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I have been asked so many times within the last two days if I'm getting excited about graduation. My answer is always the same: No.

I'm honestly way to stressed to even contemplate graduating right now. I have procrastinated way too much for comfort, and now everything is piled on at the end. So much shit is due within the next two weeks, and I am not prepared for any of it. So, no, I am not excited about graduation. I have nothing to do afterward, so there is no rush for me to go home. I despise the idea of me living with my parents again. I want my own place, but of course I can't afford that shit.

Not too mention I'm not looking forward to leaving monterey. Surprisingly I got comfortable here, and am kind of nervous to leave and not know when I'm coming back. I hope I can stay at least an extra week just so I can say a proper goodbye to some people. My parents didn't seem too thrilled with that idea, but just up-and-leaving is kinda scary. Especially since I'll have family here from mid week til the time I leave for good, so I won't get to hang out with anyone those last few days. I just need a few extra days to tie up some loose ends and maybe see where some things go.

Why is everything happening so fast?